Wednesday, July 8, 2026

 When Is Deception Okay with GOD?


 

I used to think that deception was never appropriate, but now, I’m starting to wonder if there is ever a time where the “sin of omission” is called for.  As usual, I decided to look into the Scriptures to see if deception was ever used by one of GOD’s servants, and I found one where GOD blessed it.  When war is declared upon one of GOD’s servants, no matter how imperfect they are, if that servant is a man or woman after GOD’s own heart then that person who declared war on them also declared war on GOD.  Today's story comes from 2nd Samuel chapter 15-18.  King David was enjoying the perks of being king and ignoring his subjects who were being treated unfairly.  His next born son, Absalon, who had already killed first born and next in line for the throne, Amnon, and he saw this as an opportunity to usurp the king and declare himself king. So, for four years, at the king’s gate, he intercepted King David’s subjects who came with a complaint seeking justice, and Absalom saw that the victim was vindicated.  In doing this, he won the favor of many people.  David’s servants likely saw what was happening and warned the King, but the King, being the passive father that he was, ignored the warnings.  It wasn’t until it was too late that King David realized that he screwed up, again. 

Here now we have King David, on the run, again with about 600 loyal men and women fleeing the city as Absalom had gone to Hebron to declare himself king.  I have learned so much about the Bible from my favorite Torah teacher (TORAH Class playlists) who explains the cultures and thought patterns of these ancient peoples, and one of the points he brought out was that back then, people went to different territories because they wanted the blessing of the  god of that territory. At that particular time in Israelite history, Hebron was the capital city of the God of the Israelites. Whenever you see a pattern or shadow in the Hebrew Scriptures, you can usually find it in the world or the Christian church today.   Many Christians go to “The LORD’s House” where they think GOD is most influential and the blessings of GOD are obviously there, to them.  Of course, man’s corrupted thought is, the bigger the church, the more GOD is blessing it.  In other words, those Mega churches must be doing something right, so we’ll go there, right?  WRONG.  Mega churches are created by men using man-made techniques and marketing tools, not the Word of GOD or by the Power of the Holy Spirit.  YHVH GOD is just as powerful alone in our hiding places as people think He is on any given Sunday at the local church no matter how big the campus. Sin is so easily hidden in a mega church, but when we are alone in our room with GOD, our sin will find us out, and it’s between GOD and us and the Holy Spirit whether we confess and turn from it. 

2 Samuel 15-18 New Living Translation

So, where do you find the sin of omission or deception used by King David and his loyal servants?  I can spoon feed you the Bible, or you can seek GOD’s truth on your own.  I will leave you the link to the story, which is four chapters long, and you can decide for yourself whether what deception King David did was blessed by GOD or not. I don’t like to just pick out one or two Scriptures and twist them to agree with me. What I’d rather do is include the whole story and let you make your own interpretations with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.  It is my personal opinion, that in times of war, deception is sometimes needed. 

If we need another example, we can look to the Scriptures again, but this time with a corrupt king, Ahab.  That evil king was hell bent on doing things his way even when YHVH GOD sent a good and honest prophet, Micaiah his way to warn him. So what did YHVH do?  He sent a deceiving spirit to end King Ahab's evil ways, because he refuse to repent like he did earlier and had gained three more years. When King Ahab repented  It is too bad that King Ahab did not appreciate the mercy of GOD the next time he was warned. That story I have included for you: 

 1 Kings: 19 Then Micaiah said, “Therefore hear the word of the Lord: I saw the Lord sitting on His throne, and all the host of heaven standing by, on His right hand and on His left. 20 And the Lord said, ‘Who will persuade Ahab to go up, that he may fall at Ramoth Gilead?’ So one spoke in this manner, and another spoke in that manner. 21 Then a spirit came forward and stood before the Lord, and said, ‘I will persuade him.’ 22 The Lord said to him, ‘In what way?’ So he said, ‘I will go out and be a lying spirit in the mouth of all his prophets.’ And the Lord said, ‘You shall persuade him, and also prevail. Go out and do so.’ 23 Therefore look! The Lord has put a lying spirit in the mouth of all these prophets of yours, and the Lord has declared disaster against you.”


So, when is deception okay? Only if it has a righteous outcome.  We humans deceive ourselves and others all the time not for a righteous outcome, but for our own benefit, which is hardly ever righteous.  Scripture is clear, that if a person digs a pit, eventually, he will fall into it.  It was when I was describing this verse to a friend who also has a relative digging herself into a pit that I saw in the metaphor of that person digging throwing dirt on the innocent. Both of us have suffered harm from relatives throwing dirt on us while digging their pits, and I know that GOD put that picture in my head.  I have tried to keep the stone from rolling over on that man’s head long enough, and it’s time to just let the ground above cave in on him.  I finally have reached the point of acceptance that you cannot save a person who doesn’t want to be saved.  You can’t help a man who doesn’t want to help himself out of the pit he dug.  If he chooses not to climb out of that pit, it’s a choice he made.  Eventually, the hole caves in and the stones fall on the one digging, and GOD will be the Savior who cleans the dirt of His loyal subjects. Sometimes, there is nothing we can do to help others, we just have to let GOD's will take its course, even if it takes decades.  


Friday, June 26, 2026

The Second Biggest Lie in Christianity -Maybe!



  About a year ago, I wrote the blog post that I had been contemplating and waiting to write for a year. It was about the lie of eternal conscious torment and a place we've learned about called Hell.  (The Biggest Most Egregious Lie )   I had spent over a year looking for this place called hell in the Bible, and I could not find it as we've been described.  I searched the Scriptures and did numerous searches from Bible teachers.  The only thing I found were twisted Scriptures taken out of context which were never meant to devise this place called Hell that man made up.  Today, many more people are finding out the truth about this lie.  Sadly, too many people want this lie to be the truth.  I have to admit there are times when I see someone's evil activity under the sun and wish there was a hell with eternal concious torment, but wishing something to be true does not make it true.  

    Well, I'm on a new quest this year to find out if there really is a heaven as we know it.  Now, I know the Bible speaks of heaven, but it speaks of it in three different means.  There's the sky above, outer space, and the place where YHVH GOD dwells, but is it a place where humans go when they die.  I've searched again and again, and I cannot find where Jesus/Yeshua said that we go there right after we die.  Sure, there's that place called Paradise that he mentioned to the thief on the cross next to him, however, the Greek language back then had no punctuation, so if you read the Scripture with the correct grammar it could say, And Jesus said to him, “Assuredly, I say to you today,  you will be with Me in Paradise.”  In other words, today meant the day he said it, not that he would be in Paradise that day with him, because we all know that Jesus did NOT go to Paradise that day.  In fact, three days later, after he was resurrected, he told Mary in "John 20:17 Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to Me, for I have not yet ascended to My Father; but go to My brethren and say to them, ‘I am ascending to My Father and your Father, and to My God and your God.’  So, the thief on the cross could not have been with Jesus in Paradise on that day because we know Jesus did not ascend until 40 days after He was resurrected.  

    Paul said over and over again he was persecuted for speaking about "the Resurrection" as if it not had happened yet.  The Bible says in Revelation that there will be a first resurrection after the Tribulation and the wrath of GOD and before the 1,000 year reign of Christ.  How can there be a first resurrection if there's been millions with each passing death?  Sure, there's those two passages Paul speaks of when he says, "To die is gain to live is Christ," or that he wish to depart and be with the LORD."  Who doesn't wish to depart and be with GOD?  Apart from the body does mean to be with GOD, consciously, but is it immediate.  Yet, he also said that those who died have "fallen asleep."  So what does this fallen asleep mean?  I asked YHVH GOD this question, and I think I got the answer.  Now, I'm not saying this is the absolute truth, facts, and divine revelation, however, I was reminded of the 10-plus times that I've had general anesthesia.  Immediately, a memory flashed before me and I evaluated that memory as if maybe the Holy Spirit was having me do that.  

   Every time I go to sleep, I dream. I am not exaggerating, I thought this was normal, but apparantly not everyone who closes their eyes starts to dream, but I always have.  I am aware of time when I am dreaming. I am semi-conscious.  I wake up several times a night, remember my dream for a few seconds before I go back to sleep and dream some more.  Sometimes, I even know when I am dreaming. Let me tell you, those are scarier moments, because I'm aware this dream could turn into a night terror to which I've been plagued all of my life.  Most times during those night terrors where I am aware that I am dreaming I am unable to wake myself up.  Many a night terror when I realized I was having a nightmare I have tried over and over to wake myself up.  So, while I'm asleep, I am aware of time and space.  What does this have to do with general anesthesia?  Well, all the  times that I have had general anesthesia I remember being given the drugs to fall asleep.  I remember fighting the effects, the last seconds before I sleep, then I only remember waking up in the recovery room.  I have been put out for as short as 30 minutes to as long as six hours.  Maybe the Holy Spirit was telling me that falling asleep under general anesthesia is like dying.  There is only the memory of the last few seconds until we wake up at The Resurrection. Ecclesiastes tells us that the dead know nothing, they remember nothing. 

   We've all heard story after story of people who have died and had a memory of going to heaven or hell, but those are people's stories of dying and coming back.  Maybe they weren't truly dead.  I honestly do not know.  I know one person whose heart stopped and was brought back, and she said all she remember was seeing total pitch dark.  But, the point is she remembers and she lived another four years before she died permanently.  Ecclesiastes says that the dead have no memory. 
  The point of this blog post to get you to think, not to answer your questions, because I too have questions.  Scripture does not say that we immediately go to heaven. It says that we obtain eternal life for trusting in Jesus, but it does not say when.  Christianity has implicated that we do go immediately based on a few Scriptures that do not expressly say that.  It is interpretation by a religion, not absolute fact written in words.  Paul once mentions going to the third heaven whether in the body or not.  Maybe he did die and was given a brief explanation of what is to come in the Resurrection or maybe it was a dream.  I know that I have had two such dreams and one was similar to Paul's.  I knew it was a dream after I woke up, however, it was too incredible to describe in mere words.  Maybe in my dream YHVH GOD was giving me a glimpse of the Resurrection, because at the time, I was in a very dark and depressed time of my life where all I wanted to do was die.  Maybe, He was showing me what to live for, that my reward would come, but there's is no promise that the reward is immediate.  The other dream I had I was conscious of the fact that the end of my life was coming, but there was no heaven at the end, just a blank space of peace.  (The Best Dream I Ever Had ). 
   Scripture tells us a parable, and that is all it truly is, a parable of Lazarus and the rich man, where Lazarus is comforted in Abraham's bosom. There is no mention of Paradise. There were so many reasons for him to tell that parable based on their present culture. It wasn't about whether there is a hell or heaven, but who was eligible for eternal life. In those days, those ancient people assumed only the rich would be resurrected to Paradise just because blessings in this life meant blessings in the after life. They assumed that the poor were cursed. Jesus was telling them what they thought was wrong. 
  I am still in the research stages, but to tell you the truth, I am comforted at the fact that when I do die, whether or not I remember the days, months, or years that I am in the grave, one day I will wake up to be with my GOD and my Savior.  Soul sleep sounds pretty good to me if it's anything like general anesthesia, because right now, my memories of what has been are pretty painful because of what this mama of 8 has lost.  I've lost those precious little babies and children to some full grown wonderful adults, but I still miss those babies who are gone forever.  




Sunday, May 17, 2026

NO SUCH THING AS FAILING GOD!


     As a former leftist, liberal, feminist, then uppity church pew dweller, then prodigal, and all around screw-up, I know about as much about YHVH GOD, who created the universe as the average human screw-up. I'm far from an expert, but I have studied the Bible inside, outside, and upside down. I've studied the historicity of it and how GOD dealt with His people throughout the ages, especially His heroes who were total screw-ups. (They were all men, by the way, no women screw-ups in his heroine list that I could find!) I have lived in the fiery furnace of affliction for decades, some by my own doing, some not, and there is one thing that keeps coming back to me, and it's as old as Genesis. GOD predicted man's downfall and need for redemption before he even created the first man. He foreknew of their need deliverance. There is not one event or period of apostasy that GOD did not predict and even anticipate for his people and for each individual. The plan was set, but man being a dense as he is, he had to learn the hard way. I'm like that. I learn by trial and error, mostly error. What I'm going to tell you isn't rocket science, so it is not going to require a very long explanation. (But don't count on that from a writer!)

       GOD IS OMNISCIENT!

   What does Omniscient mean?  Well, it means that before you were born, GOD knew every mistake you would make. He knew about that mathematical error on your first grade math paper, to the low score on your SAT's because you were out partying the night before the exam.  He knew about the D you got in Geology 101 as a college freshman, because you skipped class that was the maps portion of the course and you turned in a blank final exam.  He also knew about that girl or boy that you would charm into bed because, well, they were hot, and you were dumped by the love of your life. He knew about that bad marriage and all the mistakes you would make in it.  He knew that child you screwed up the first time around parenting because you had awful parents and you had no idea what you were doing as a new parent.  He knew about that guy you fell head-over-heals in love with right after your husband dumped you.  He knew that you'd cave into your heart's desire even though you knew how wrong it was.  He also knew the pain you would suffer for that decision for years to come, and that's what brought real spiritual growth in your life.  He knew that after the biggest mistake of your life you would dedicate your life to Him, even if that meant a lonely existence with no new love in your life for the rest of your days.  

  Are you catching on?  He knew all the mistakes you were going to make. As a matter of fact, He actually weaved the lessons you would learn from them into your life to teach you how to be a better person and servant.  He loved and corrected you like a son or a daughter, because He knew that you would be a devoted one.  GOD knew that all your mistakes would get you a PhD in the college of Hard Knocks, and you would turn it all around and write a block buster book that would go viral after you left this earth.  The whole time you were screwing up, He knew that there would be other screw-ups who would someday need a screw-up to look up to!  Learn this one fact, there is no way to fail GOD, because even if you did not do all those things like I did,  He knew that He had a purpose for your life, and He was going to accomplish it whether you wanted Him to or not.  And, here's the kicker, for those outside the family of GOD, you did not fail Him either, because He knew that you would never turn to Him and want to turn your life around to do something good for the Kingdom.  It's impossible to fail someone who knows your every thought, word and deed before you were even born.  

     If you are a parent, tell me, do you love your children?  Are they perfect?  Did you ever stop loving them with each mistake they made?  When they were born did you expect them to be perfect, or did you know that there would be a lifetime of mistakes that they would make before they turned thirty? It is just like you understand your rebellious teen because it's a phase, one you yourself went through.  Your child did not fail you when they went through that awkward stage of thinking they knew more than you at the ripe old age of fourteen.  We cannot fail the Omniscient Creator who knew long before you took your first breath that you would be total screw-up, but one that He loved enough to send His Son for so you could live with Him forever in Paradise.  The next time you see a post where someone confesses to fail GOD, send them my way, so I can straighten them out, because that's my job.  

Sunday, May 3, 2026

 RIZPAH AND OTHER UNKONWNS (Part 2) 


   Since beginning the new wonderful job GOD has given me, I've not written a single word in almost nine months, but that doesn't mean I've not contemplated a thousand things.  This one theme of "nobodies" has been on my mind for a very long time, and I knew that my previous post Rizpah and Other Unknowns Part 1 needed a part 2.  I just had to wait until the Almighty gave it to me.  This story of Naomi has been on my mind for sometime, as I myself have many times considered myself a Naomi, a Mara, bitter because of one man's decision.  Many times, I have felt abandoned by GOD, however, I know that "emotions have no intellect and facts have no feelings;" a truth my Savior taught me many, many years ago.  

    A few years back, I studied this book with my favorite TORAH teacher.  For your studying pleasure, may I suggest you listen and learn from this great teacher.  The Book of Ruth.  In that wonderful study, I learned more about this books true message from the Hebrew aspect.   When I studied it in the Christian church, I learned a completely different lesson from it.  That is true for all of Scripture.  If we do not know the true ancient Hebrew mindset from the writer's and listener's perspective, we miss the most meaningful truths from Scripture.  We must take off our 21st Century lenses, our contemporary (Christian) glasses and see it from the writer's perspective, the listener's perspective and from those living out these wonderful stories.  The premises of this post is about people who are nobodies in people's eyes, but somebodies in YHVH GOD's eyes.  The Most High has a Name, He gave it to Moses because He wanted it known to His people.  It is Yod Hey Vav Hey.  He wants His name known, and He does it with nobodies. The nobody I'm referring today is called Naomi, or Mara, in her own words. 

    This poor woman was subject to the sin of her husband and sons.  Yes, I said sin.  Her husband left the Holy land of Bethlehem and went to a foreign land, one he was told never to dwell in.  He went because of a famine, instead of trusting YHVH GOD to be his Provider. He went to provide for himself and his family.  Then, after he earned for himself, he kept his family in that foreign land instead of returning to the place from which YHVH GOD had placed him.  Not only did he commit this sin of self-reliance, but he taught his sons the same sin.  YHVH GOD's judgment fell upon him and he died.  So, what did his sons do?  Did they return to the Holy land and bring their mother home? Did they choose obedience to marry only  their own kind?  We know the answer to that.  They married Moabite women, which they knew was a sin against GOD.  So, GOD's judgment fell upon them, also.  Not only were they not allowed sons of their own in the ten years they were married, but they were taken out by GOD Himself, and rightly so.  

    Naomi, the nobody in a foreign land, who was not allowed to do her own thing in a man's world back then, did what she knew to be correct after the judgment of GOD fell upon her husband and sons.  She returned to the land which GOD told them to dwell, and she took her daughters-in-law with her, because when a daughter joins a family in marriage, they become part of that family for life.  One foolishly returned to her own land and family, but one wisely chose the better route.  Maybe she did because her mother-in-law taught her of this Wonderful GOD she worshiped and obeyed.  The nobody named Naomi submitted to the male authority in her life, her husband, because that was what was expected of her, but when GOD took away that authority, she did the next best thing, gave herself back to her Creator.  He, in turn, did not let her down, although, from her perspective, she saw it differently.  

     She saw herself cursed of GOD, but her perspective did not matter to her God, because YHVH GOD had a better plan, a better redemption that was awaiting her when she obeyed.  She was an old woman, too old to be married again in order to reproduce, but not too old to be redeemed.  The book of Ruth is the name for the book, but it is not the main theme of the book.  The book's main character and theme is really about Naomi's redemption,  and the ancient Hebrews would have known this.  The Leverite Marriage law's purpose was to extend a family's heritage. Naomi was too old to have more children, so that responsibility to extend the family's heritage fell upon her daughter-in-law Ruth. 

  Most Christians have adopted this book as a book about a gentile woman grafted in to the Israelite branch, just as they are grafted in by Yeshua into the Vine.  Sadly, some Christian denominations think they have replaced the Vine and have become the vine themselves, hence replacement theology.  Isn't it ironic that some gentile Christian churches  have replaced the true theme of a Hebrew book with a gentile main character, when the true meaning of the book is about a faithful Hebrew woman, discarded by men, but protected by YHVH GOD.  Naomi, a nobody widow who was somebody to GOD,  somebody enough for Him to rescue from a foreign land who practice pagan god worship, and brought her back to redemption through His Patriarchal Laws for the provision for women. 




    It is call the Levirate Marriage Law, and it is to protect women, because GOD honors women more than man likes to admit or obey.  I learned for over two decades that the theme of the book of Ruth is about a kinsman redeemer, a Hebrew named Boaz, for a gentile named Ruth.  Boaz  is a predecessor for a gentile's Kinsmen Redeemer who is the true Israelite Messiah for the Hebrews and also the gentiles.  Yeshua is the  Kinsman Redeemer for a people grafted into the Israelite Vine.  Gentiles are the branches grafted in, not the vine themselves.  Note, Ruth did not take Boaz home to Moab, instead, she was grafted into the Israelite religion and custom and under the Laws of Moses.  So, again, this post is about two nobodies who were rescued and redeemed by The Most High, one a true Hebrew, and one a gentile. Yet, these two nobodies, back then,  now live in infamy because of their obedience.   Ruth was just a recipient and benefactor of Naomi's obedience. We too can benefit from that spirit of obedience and humility as nobodies to men but somebodies to YHVH GOD.  Our obedience does not only benefit us, but those watching us, also. 




Sunday, November 23, 2025

     REJECTED BY MEN, ACCEPTED BY GOD


For almost 30 years in the Christian church, I was rejected by pastors, because I asked too many questions. It's okay for a man to ask questions, but in Christianity, it's never okay for a woman,, especially one who asks the hard questions. I've had pastors show me the door, want me to leave, ignore me and treat me like a second class citizen, especially after my husband divorced me. I could almost read their minds. "There's obviously something wrong with her, because her own husband rejected her." So, I stopped going to church. I stopped for almost eight years. I asked GOD why I was always rejected in church and never fit in.

I believe He said, "Maybe, you never fit in because I did not design you to fit in." For thirty years, I was compelled to go to church, because that was obeying Hebrews 10:25. Christians tell you that you are obligated to go to church or there is something wrong with your walk with GOD. You are compelled to tithe, because that's the part of the "Law" they want to keep, the rest, well, that's obsolete. To them, Jesus replaced the Law, but not the tithe. Christians have been teaching this for generations. I've been dismissed by church people because I do not go to church, and yet, I've learned that I was going for the wrong reasons. The Holy Spirit had to re-program me, and it has taken this long, because GOD's revelation through the Holy Spirit is progressive. For a while there, I swore I'd never step foot in another Christian church just like 36 years ago I swore I'd never step foot in another Roman Catholic church. And yet, here I am contemplating whether or not I want to go to a Baptist church this morning that I've been invited to recently.

I'm a different person now. I've stood alone with YHVH for eight years never once being rejected by Him. In fact, I was chosen and anointed to know more, to study more, and to know some of the secrets of YHVH that the devil has blinded most Christians to. I won't go into those secrets, because this blog post is not about that, however, many of my other posts have been. I don't blame Christians at all, they are only repeating what their pastors have told them. I don't blame pastors, they are only repeating what their seminary professors have told them. I don't even blame the seminary professors, because they have been repeating what Biblical commentators of old have told them. Who do I blame? The enemy of GOD of course.

The adversary began the Roman church, not the Roman Catholic Church, the Roman church, the one that took over in the 2nd Century AD. It all went bad from there, 1800 years of bad. It was the same in Jesus's day, it was the Rabbinical teachers, the teachers of Halacha, the oral law which was a combination of the Talmud and the TORAH. It was the adversary who got into men's brains and corrupted the Word of YHVH, and why Yeshua had to come, to bring back the purity of the TORAH, which means instructions. Here we are 2,000 years later, and we are at the same exact point. Yeshua/Jesus is not coming back to teach the purity of the TORAH this time, instead He has sent the Holy Spirit, and it has lit on fire those of us who were called and anointed to bring the truth to our brothers and sisters in Christ. Just like the day of Josiah, the TORAH has been hidden in the walls of the Church, and YHVH has made sure that it has been found.


One of the secrets of GOD is that He is bringing the two houses of Israel back together like He promised for thousands of years in the Hebrew Scriptures. He is bringing the stick of Judah and the stick of Ephraim back together again. Ephraim is the gentile Christian church this time, and Judah are the Messianic Jews. We are all His, but we are not united, yet. The Christians love the verse "blessed are those who bring good news" when referring to missionaries who go to remote parts of the world to bring the Gospel to those who've never heard it. Well, blessed are the feet who bring the TORAH to those who have never heard it, also, because the Gospel is the TORAH and the TORAH is the Gospel. I want to bring the good news of the TORAH to my brothers and sisters in the Gentile Church, but many don't want to hear the TORAH, because they've been told it's the LAW, and we are not under the LAW anymore. Well, if GOD did away with His laws, then there'd be no sin anymore and no need for a Savior.

It's a shame that my gentile brothers and sisters in the Christian church cannot find the Grace that is in the TORAH, because they believe Jesus is the Grace of the Gospel. I want to help change that. My brothers and sisters in Christ have replaced the Holy Days YHVH declared in the TORAH for the unholy days the Roman Church declared. I want to help change that. Lately, I've been doing a lot of study of the time during the Maccabees, the Hellenistic period where the Jews began to blend in with the culture, and I could write a whole new blog just about those times, but it would only sound like the days we are living in now. Christians believe there was a period of silence of 400 years between the two testaments in the Bible, but there was no silence from YHVH at all. YHVH was just as busy about His work then as He is now. Jesus said in John 5, my Father is always working and so am I. There was no time of silence from YHVH, it's just that the Roman Church convinced men that there was because of their hatred of all things Jewish. The Roman Catholic Church and many protestant churches have convinced their people that they are the new Israel.

I recently heard from a Messianic brother who found me on a Psalm119 ministries site, and he and I have been emailing. When I told him that I visited a Baptist church he rebuked me and told me that I was sinning to meet with my gentile brothers and sisters in Christ on the first day of the week. I asked him where in the TORAH did YHVH tell us to not meet any specific day to worship Him? I can tell you where the Roman church made it illegal to meet, but there is no day of the week where YHVH told us not to meet and corporately worship Him. In fact, Romans tells us that our true act of worship is to offer our bodies as a living sacrifice. In other words, obeying YHVH is an act of worship, not just singing a song on any particular day or meeting on any particular day. Obeying YHVH means obeying His Instructions, i.e. the TORAH, which Yeshua did. Shouldn't we walk exactly like him to the best of our ability? The reason for Jesus coming 2,000 years ago was two-fold, to bring back the purity of GOD's Instructions and to do what the TORAH could not do, and that was to save us and give us eternal life with Him in Paradise. He did not abolish the TORAH, he taught it and obeyed it.

So, I contemplate going to church on the first day with my Baptist brothers and sisters, preparing to be rejected again. If I am, well, I'll wipe the dust off my feet like Yeshua told us to do when we are not welcome, and I'll continue to pursue YHVH and His Righteousness wherever He sends me. If that is only to the blank page, then I'll do it there.



Monday, November 17, 2025

Clueless People Vomiting GOD's Wrath




       With all due respect to the late  R.C Sproul, with whom I vehemently disagreed with on many points, has some really great points in some of his better sermons. I chose this picture to illustrate the point of my title.  Church people are clueless when it comes to relating to non-church people.  I was not a church person for the first twenty-six years of my life, so I remember well living outside the walls of the church without the great Translator, the Holy Spirit.  I know what it's like to hear "greek" when a born-again holy roller said something.  Most church people are the type that have been sitting in a pew since they were in their mother's womb. They don't get us and we don't get them. How can they, they were never one of us.  When I refer to church people, I'm talking about the ones who know nothing other than the morality gospel.  The word gospel means good news, the morality gospel is not good news.  The morality gospel says, "You people outside the church are dirty sinners, and you are all going to hell, unless you conform to the likeness of us,"  PERIOD. 

     Beside the fact that hell is a fictional place, the doctrine of eternal conscious torture and torment was made up by the church, (written about in a previous blog post: The BIGGEST and most EGREGIOUS Lie of Christianity), church people usually use the Bible and Scripture as a weapon and not for healing.  Jesus came to heal and teach, not to condemn.  I know this, because after over two decades as a church person, I did the same thing. It was after a period of being a prodigal, I remembered what it was like to live on the outside.  I wish church people on the inside would get that using Scripture as a weapon does not bring life, but kills instead.  Most of them are too busy bathing and being baptized over and over again in their own self-righteousness that they have lost the entire purpose of the coming of Jesus to bring us to the Father

   
    Maybe I can give you another example of if you haven't worn their shoes, you can't walk in them. I've never been a drug addict, henceforth, I do not know their struggle because I've never walked in their shoes.  With that being said, as a cancer survivor who was on some serious pain-killers during radiation hell, I do understand slightly what withdrawal is.  About two weeks after the last treatment, I noticed some alleviation in the pain, hence, I took off all the patches and threw them in the trash.  BIG MISTAKE!  The next day, I woke up, and I wish I hadn't, because I was freezing and sweating at the same time.  I was as sick with the "flu" as one could be without actually having the virus.  Going off all that pain medication in one instant like that was the equivalent of going cold turkey off Heroin after being on it 24/7 for three months.   It was then that I got a whole new appreciation for their struggle.  So, to say I can relate to a drug addict is only in the sense that I get what withdrawal feels like, but I never had the desire to go back to pain medication after that. I can empathize only partially. 

   What is so sad about the ineffective evangelism of the Christian church is that these people raised in it don't understand those who are not.  Only the Holy Translator Who speaks all languages can. The best and only thing one can do is love them and pray for them, because if God wants them, only He can do what it takes to win them. Let GOD convict them instead of you trying to convince them.  The only thing a human does by trying to convince and outsider to live by insider rules is to push the outsider further outside. 
  
    Now, to many, I may come off that way as self-righteous, and I'm sorry for that.  Yet, there is the other end of the spectrum and that is that GOD is all-loving, never judgmental, loving unconditionally, because GOD is Jesus, and not the other way around.  Jesus is part of the Trinity, he is the GOD the Son.  He did come to judge, but he judged the self-righteous right.  He also came to tell sinners that there was a way out, but that way was narrow, and few find it.  He was talking to his own people, the Jews, well, I'm talking to my own people, the church.  The road is narrow, and sadly, many people in the church are on the broad road, the road to destruction, because they have been taught a lie.  The lie is all you have to do is believe in Jesus, and regardless of what you do, you are saved, because if you obey the TORAH, which means INSTRUCTIONS, the same INSTRUCTIONS Yeshua obeyed, well, that's a works doctrine and you are not under grace.  Jesus did not come to abolish the TORAH, GOD's INSTRUCTIONS, he came to do what it could not do, save us, but that doesn't mean we throw the instruction manual out.  

   If we use grace as a license to sin, then we got our license from the devil, not GOD.  We have a license to do good, to live right, not just a  get-out-of-hell-free card.  In other words, if you're sleeping with the flavor of the month and going to church every Sunday, you have created a god in your own image, one you can accept instead of the One who wants to accept you.  Stop going to church, because He hates a hypocrite.  Let me explain what the true and proper "fear of GOD" is, and it's not what you think.  We devoted ones aren't afraid of his wrath, what we are afraid of is the dreaded "wooden spoon" from heaven, maybe y'all from the south would understand the "switch" better. Those who truly belong to YHVH GOD, or are truly working out their salvation in Jesus with fear and trembling cannot go on sinning or living in sin, because the Holy Spirit won't let them.  Sometimes, GOD has to put a hook in our noses to bring us back to him, (2 Chronicles 33)  and blessed is that man GOD will go that far to bring back to the fold, even if he thinks he's still in the fold sitting in a pew every week.  

    
  

Sunday, November 16, 2025

ONE TRUTH or THOUSANDS OF DENOMINATIONS


     A new pastor from a church, of which we used to be members, called me to ask if we were once members of this congregation, and I said yes. He tried to get me to come back to church on Sunday. I told him I was not a Christian any longer, that I considered myself a Messianic Jew. I explained that I found out about my Jewish heritage in 2018, and after careful study of Scripture, I realized that Christianity was never something that Yeshua began.  He said, and I quote, "Well, if you believe in Jesus as your Savior, then I consider you a Christian." I corrected him and told him that Messianic Jews are NOT Christians, because we know that Christianity is a  man-made religion. I told him that I've studied the Scriptures and church history too well, and I cannot go on living the lies I've learned in Christianity. I began to tell him the truth, and he quickly and abruptly ended the conversation and wished me well.  

    This is something we face daily, we lovers of the TORAH.  Christian pastors avoid us like the plague, because they know only what the seminaries have taught them: Anyone who believes in Jesus as their Savior is a Christian, and they must fit and conform to the mold, and it's their job to make them conform.  They choose to believe the lie that Yeshua began Christianity.  He did not.  He came to teach TORAH, which means instructions.  He came to differntiate Halacha, oral law created by man from the true TORAH, which is GOD's instructions to man.  Halacha is what man added to TORAH, which was strictly forbidden by YHVH GOD

   So, the lie that Christianity began with Jesus and his Disciples began with the antisemite church, the Roman Church.  The evil ROMAN Catholic Church lied 1800 years ago and created a corrupt system of government for the followers of Yeshua HaMashiach. They stripped them of their ability to read Scripture on their own when Jerome translated the Scriptures into the Latin Vulgate. (Which went against YHVH GOD's intention of keeping the Word of GOD in a common language most could read.) The ROMAN Church intentionally harassed, persecuted and murdered anyone who tried to get the Scriptures into the hands of ordinary people. If this historical video doesn't boil your blood, nothing will. The great murderous Roman Catholic Church

  Their new system of governance is just as corrupt as the US Federal Government has become. The mother church system spawned a rebellious daughter called the Protestant Rebellion, which in turn created in and of itself a just as corrupt a system of the governance of spirituality, dividing it unto thousands of denominations with different sets of rules and by-laws to live by. The Reformation was only people who wanted to rebel from the Mother church, but keep from her what it liked and wanted, i.e. infant baptism and some of the sacraments, including pagan holidays baptized into Christ. Yeshua did not start another religion nor did he abolish the old one, yet the Christian church seems to want to skip over his own words for what they misinterpret Sha'ul/Paul saying in the book of Romans.

Matthew 5
17 “Don’t think that I have come to abolish the Torah or the Prophets. I have come not to abolish but to complete. 18 Yes indeed! I tell you that until heaven and earth pass away, not so much as a yud or a stroke will pass from the Torah — not until everything that must happen has happened. 19 So whoever disobeys the least of these mitzvot and teaches others to do so will be called the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. But whoever obeys them and so teaches will be called great in the Kingdom of Heaven. 20 For I tell you that unless your righteousness is far greater than that of the Torah-teachers and P’rushim, you will certainly not enter the Kingdom of Heaven!

Yeshua HaMashiach the Son of YHVH GOD was a TORAH keeper, and he taught us to do the same. PERIOD. We were taught by Sha'ul, the Jewish Pharisee who became a follower of the Jewish Yeshua to walk as Yeshua did. The Roman Catholic Church invented a gentile Jesus and a converted Paul with new rules and regulations, neither of whom ever existed. The Protestant church only extended the corrupt teachings of the Roman Catholic church, and stripped the Scriptures of the Jewish heritage. The Roman Catholic Church outlawed the Hebrew Scriptures and the Torah completely. Yes, the Roman Church outlawed YHVH GOD's own Instructions which is Hebrew is translated Torah that He established with Moses. Now, that's arrogance. In the 15th Century, Martin Luther, the began the rebellion of Roman Catholicism did not go far enough. He tried to convert Jews to protestantism, but when he could not he began to hate them, and later his writing inspired the contemporary anti-semite Adolph Hitler into trying to eliminate all of those of Hebrew descent. A two-thousand year-old lie is just that, an old lie, not the truth, not the way, and surely not what Yeshua began. Sha'ul called what Yeshua began as "The Way," not Christianity.


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