REJECTED BY MEN, ACCEPTED BY GOD

For almost 30 years in the Christian church, I was rejected by pastors, because I asked too many questions. It's okay for a man to ask questions, but in Christianity, it's never okay for a woman,, especially one who asks the hard questions. I've had pastors show me the door, want me to leave, ignore me and treat me like a second class citizen, especially after my husband divorced YHVH GOD and me. I could almost read their minds. "There's obviously something wrong with her, because her own husband rejected her." So, I stopped going to church. I stopped for almost eight years. I asked YHVH why I was always rejected in church and never fit in.

I believe He said, "Maybe, you never fit in because I did not design you to fit in." For thirty years, I was compelled to go to church, because that was obeying Hebrews 10:25. Christians tell you that you are obligated to go to church or there is something wrong with your walk with GOD. You are compelled to tithe, because that's the part of the "Law" they want to keep, the rest, well, that's obsolete. To them, Jesus replaced the Law, but not the tithe. Christians have been teaching this for generations. I've been dismissed by Christians because I do not go to church, and yet, I've learned that I was going for the wrong reasons. The Holy Spirit had to re-program me, and it has taken this long, because GOD's revelation through the Holy Spirit is progressive. For a while there, I swore I'd never step foot in another Christian church just like 36 years ago I swore I'd never step foot in another Roman Catholic church. And yet, here I am contemplating whether or not I want to go to a Baptist church this morning that I've been invited to recently.

I almost know what's going to happen. I'm going to ask the hard questions again, and another pastor will likely see me as a trouble maker and make sure I know that I'm not wanted there, however, I'm a different person now. I've stood alone with YHVH GOD for eight years never once being rejected by Him. In fact, I was chosen and anointed to know more than a Christian usually knows. I was chosen and anointed to know some of the secrets of YHVH that the devil has blinded most Christians to. I won't go into those secrets, because this blog post is not about that, however, all several hundred of my other posts have been. This I suppose is a wrap up, because I've faced a blank page for months now and not had anything new to write.

I don't blame Christians at all, they are only repeating what their pastors have told them. I don't blame pastors, they are only repeating what their seminary professors have told them. I don't even blame the seminary professors, because they have been repeating what Biblical commentators of old have told them. Who do I blame? The enemy of GOD of course. The adversary began the Roman church, not the Roman Catholic Church, the Roman church, the one that took over in the 2nd Century AD. It all went bad from there, 1800 years of bad. It was the same in Jesus's day, it was the Rabbinical teachers, the teachers of Halacha, the oral law which was a combination of the Talmud and the TORAH. It was the adversary who got into men's brains and corrupted the Word of YHVH, and why Yeshua had to come, to bring back the purity of the TORAH, which means instructions. Here we are 2,000 years later, and we are at the same exact point. Yeshua is not coming back to teach the purity of the TORAH this time, instead He has sent the Holy Spirit and it has lit on fire those of us who were called and anointed to bring the truth to our brothers and sisters in Christ. Just like the day of Josiah, the TORAH has been hidden in the walls of the Church, and YHVH has made sure that it has been found.

YHVH is bringing the two houses of Israel back together like He promised for thousands of years in the Hebrew Scriptures. He is bring the stick of Judah and the stick of Ephraim back together again. Ephraim is the gentile Christian church this time, and Judah are the Messianic Jews. We are all His, but we are not united, yet. The Christians love the verse "blessed are those who bring good news" when referring to missionaries who go to remote parts of the world to bring the Gospel to those who've never heard it. Well, blessed are the feet who bring the TORAH to those who have never heard it, also, because the Gospel is the TORAH and the TORAH is the Gospel. I want to bring the good news of the TORAH to my brothers and sisters in the Gentile Church, but many don't want to hear the TORAH, because they've been told it's the LAW, and we are not under the LAW anymore. Well, if GOD did away with the LAW, then there'd be no sin anymore and no need for a Savior.

It's a shame that my gentile brothers and sisters cannot find the Grace that is in the TORAH, because they believe Jesus is the Grace of the Gospel. I want to help change that. My brothers and sisters in Christ have replaced the Holy Days YHVH declared in the TORAH for the unholy days the Roman Church declared. I want to help change that. Lately, I've been doing a lot of study of the time during the Maccabees, and I could write a whole new blog just about those times, maybe I will, but we are in those days. Christians believe there was a period of silence of 400 years between the two testaments in the Bible, but there was no silence from YHVH at all. YHVH was just as busy about His work then as He is now. Jesus said in John 5, my Father is always working and so am I. There was no time of silence from YHVH, it's just that the Roman Church convinced men that there was because of their hatred of all things Jewish. The Roman Catholic Church has convinced their people that they are the new Israel. Theirs's is a lost cause, but I don't believe that my Protestant brothers and sisters are completely lost.

I recently heard from a Messianic brother who found me on a Psalm119 ministries site, and he and I have been emailing. When I told him that I visited a Baptist church he rebuked me and told me that I was sinning to meet with my brothers and sisters in Christ on the first day of the week. I asked him where in the TORAH did YHVH tell us to not meet any specific day to worship Him? I can tell you where the Roman church made it illegal to meet, but there is NO day of the week where YHVH told us not to meet and corporately worship Him. In fact, Romans tells us that our true act of worship is to offer our bodies as a living sacrifice. In other words, obeying YHVH is an act of worship, not just singing a song on any particular day or meeting on any particular day. Obeying YHVH means obeying His Instructions, i.e. the TORAH, which Yeshua did. Shouldn't we walk exactly like him to the best of our ability? The reason for Jesus coming 2,000 years ago was two-fold, to bring back the purity of GOD's Instructions and to do what the TORAH could not do, and that was to save us and give us eternal life with Him in Paradise. He did not abolish the TORAH, he taught it and obeyed it.

So, I contemplate going to church on the first day with my Baptist brothers and sisters, preparing to be rejected again. If I am, well, I'll wipe the dust off my feet like Yeshua told us to do when we are not welcome, and I'll continue to pursue YHVH and His Righteousness wherever He sends me. If that is only to the blank page, then I'll do it there.