I was just talking to GOD about something so dear on my heart. I thought I heard in my spirit Him reminding me of something that happened 37 years ago when I first began dating my husband, whom I did not know would end up being my husband, then. I wondered if that was GOD reminding me of what I thought was such an insignificant moment.
It was the last day I ever spent with my college boyfriend of three years. At the time we had broken up, but the attachment was still there, and he was trying to get me back. I simply adored his family, even more than I loved my own. They accepted me and loved me back more than I had ever been loved. I had just assumed we would be together for the rest of our lives. I was hell-bent on marrying into this family and spending my life with him. I was not used to being without him in my life, because we were together upwards of twelve hours a day, everyday. I don't remember a day I spent without him all those years. Not being with him felt like not being with my left arm. (I'm left-handed) He was the best thing that had ever happened to me up to that age.
I remembered that morose feeling of dread I had inside all that day. It told me, this is no more, it needs to stop. I was so crushed and heart-broken. I couldn't bear to tell him because he loved me so much and I loved him. I did not want to hurt him, but I knew something else was coming. I wasn't even a Christian then. I knew it would be the last time we would ever be together. I never stopped loving him, but I knew, I had to move on. It was a difficult break up that took amost six months.
After the memory suddenly flooded my mind, I asked GOD if that very old memory, which I have not remembered since that day, if it was Him who sent it to prove the answer to His answer to me. Then He reminded me of the three "voices" we hear in our heads and what He taught me a while ago of how to tell the difference. Sometimes, the hardest voice to obey or understand is the one that comes from YHWH GOD.
The three voices in our head:The devil's minions' voices as they are allowed to plant thoughts in there. They are negative, pessimistic, pertain to the lust of the flesh, bathed in confusion, discouraging. They are full of doubt. We can be delivered from these if we pray to Jesus. He defeats them.The carnal nature is not as pessimistic, but includes our personal desires, things that appeal to our hearts or things we "wish." These also appeal to our flesh, but maybe in a more wholesome way at times. They may even be of goodwill, but not GOD's will. We can talk ourselves out of the carnal nature voices with Scriptures GOD has taught us.The Holy Spirit, it matches GOD's character and agrees with Scripture. It makes no sense in human reasoning. It comes back over and over again, and we cannot make it go away no matter how hard we try. Sometimes it is an unpleasant thought of something we have to do, and sometimes it's full of hope and belief for the impossible, knowing GOD can do it.