They Don't Think I Care
"If you build it, they will come," is a famous line from a famous movie and what seems to be a popular modern cliché and idiom. Well, there's is another, not as famous, but no less true. This saying is in the Spirit Realm, and I think I just heard it, straight from YHVH GOD through the Holy Spirit. I'm not one to say, "GOD told me," because usually that is an immediate turn off, and those listening usually tune out right then, because they don't believe YHVH GOD speaks to people. They would be wrong about that. The Holy Spirit definitely speaks, but many don't hear him speaking because they don't believe that GOD would speak to them. I am very cautious when I hear someone say, "The Spirit of the LORD says..., Or GOD told me..., "
YHVH GOD never tells me anything, instead He answers me when I ask Him questions or cry out to Him in pain, and I think He just did that just now. That's why I'm risking sounding like I'm off my rocker saying, that I think GOD just said this to me. The scenario goes as this: I was calling out to my covenant husband who was picking up our two youngest of our eight to take them to fireworks. I call him my Covenant husband because he considers himself my ex-husband, because he bought himself a NO-FAULT civil divorce. He had walked out on the marriage many years ago, but my memory of the man he used to be is so fresh in my mind and heart. I was reminding him about a certain topic that we were passionate about in college, and that was APATHY. We fought it trying to get commuter students truly involved in the college life. We were passionate, young starry-eyed soon-to-be college graduates, ready to take on the world. He was particularly passionate because he was our graduating class president. Yeah, I married our graduating class president. He was so ambitious then, and so was I.
He called back from his car and said that he didn't care about apathy. He was joking, of course, but in a strange and sad way, he was dead serious. One of his last statements to me about his understanding of GOD and His ways was that "God doesn't really care about our day to day stuff. GOD just puts us here, and we get up every day, do what we are supposed to do and then we die. GOD is above in heaven with a hands-off approach." That was His perception of GOD then, and it could be now, I just don't know, anymore, because I do not know that man that lives in him, now.
After he left, I shut the door and had a flash back of my Michael back then in college, and I started bawling my eyes out to GOD about how much I miss that man. I trusted with every fiber of my being, and assumed he would always be there for me. That man no longer exists and I can't stop grieving him. As I was calling out to GOD in anguish and mournful tears, I said what I often say to him.
"It's getting so hard for me to believe that You are really listening to me, seeing these tears, and feeling this anguish in my heart the longer this goes on. It's getting so hard for me to believe that You really care." Then an answer came to me before I could finish stating my grief and complaint. I do believe the Holy Spirit said to me:
"That's why most people do not come to Me, because they think I don't care." It stopped me dead in my tracks, because it came from nowhere. I never expected it. So, I asked Him to explain me. He said, "My children do not come to Me, because they do not believe that I care as much as I do. If they knew how much I did care, they would come to Me like you come to Me every day, all day long with all that effects you. The less they think I care, the less likely they are to talk to Me. If they don't talk to Me, I can't answer them."
If ever there was a time when I think GOD gave me a direct answer out of the blue, it was just then with those words and sentiment. The Bible says that every hair on our heads is accounted for, but most people do not believe that. Yes, it's hyperbole, but the principle behind the statement is as true as any of His ways and character. One way to know if GOD is speaking to us through the Holy Spirit is,
1. Does it make Biblical sense, in other words, does it fit with His
characteristics in the Whole Counsel of GOD?
2. Is it bathed in wisdom?
3. Is it an answer that seems to come out of nowhere that isn't something you would think up on your own, or on the fly like that? And, last but not least,
4. Were you just crying out to Him, pleading for an answer?
GOD only talks to us when we talk to Him. If we aren't talking to Him, He doesn't bother answering us. Then I believe He said to me, "Now, stop crying and go write that down."
A few years ago, on one of my long walks, I asked Him, "Is that really You telling me all these things, and You talking to me all the time?" The answer came back quicker than I could finish asking the question. He said, "Is that you really telling Me all these things, and you talking to Me all the time?" WHAMMO! If ever there was an answer from GOD that fit all four of those scenarios, that was the answer. The more we speak to GOD, the more we seek Him, the more He answers us, and the more He reveals to us Who He is through His Word and through our circumstances. It's simple, it's Biblical, it's bathed in wisdom, and it's an answer to the question, "Does GOD really care?"
The answer is most assuredly, YES, GOD really cares, and He would love to prove it to you, but you have to seek Him out, calling on Him, and asking Him the questions you need answers to.