Most Atheist Are Agnostics and for Good Reason. 

   Whether you are an atheist or agnostic, or you’ve been a prodigal for so long that you question even the very existence of GOD, this is as good as any time to consider the obvious. It is the human condition to question everything and try to distinguish the real from the imagined. GOD made us in His own image, which means he wants us to think things through. Maybe you are looking for something to get you through this sea of despair that is trying to drown you. I want to assure you that I have been in all of those places, so I speak of what I know experientially, if that is even a word. I remember doubting GOD’s existence, actually not believing at all. I remember thinking that Born-again believers were holy-rollers, nuts, weirdos, and not wanting anything to do with them. I also broke up with GOD after twenty-one years of walking with Him as a devout student of the Word. There are many reasons why we break up with GOD. I also can relate to treading water so long in the sea of despair that you just want to stop paddling and use your last breath to suck into your lungs a gulp of that salt-water of death. Drowning can be the easiest or the worst way to go, depending on one’s frame of mind.

     I have lived through and survived the fiery furnace of affliction for so many decades, that commonsense says, this has to be of GOD, and He must have a perfectly good reason for it. I have found that if it doesn’t make human sense, it usually makes GOD sense. I’ve been hurt in every way possible, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I have yelled at GOD, researched GOD, sought GOD, and doubted Him. Each time, though, I’ve asked Him to show Himself real to me, and the faithful GOD that He is, it wasn’t long down the road that He would knock my socks off with something so coincidental to my particular problem that it would be mathematically impossible to explain away. I’ve seen thousands of acts of GOD that are simply inexplicable. Sometimes it’s an event, sometimes it’s a Scripture, sometimes it’s a person, and sometimes it’s aptly placed on my social media feed. Regardless, when I seriously contemplate it, I can hear the Holy Spirit say, "Wrap your brain around it for a few minutes, you'll see that it was Your Father keeping you going when you continue to want to give up."

     Coincidences aren’t chance, because there is no such thing as chance. If there was, then they’d be no such thing as an All-powerful and Sovereign GOD. I tell people the best way to judge one's sanity is this: A sane person with David-like faith questions whether or not he's delusional, and a delusional person is convinced he's sane. So, if you are feeling guilty and beating yourself up for doubting GOD, or skeptical and want to find some way to denounce everything in this world, don’t worry about it. GOD understands. He knows our thoughts before we think them, and He has the answer planned ahead of time. If there is anyone who understands what it’s like to be human, it’s GOD, because he was. He came down here and suffered hell on earth in the physical limitations of the human body. The Bible says, He remembers that we are but dust. (Psalm 103, now go look for it.)

     He understands time as we experience it, even though He lives beyond time because when He came to earth as a man.  When Jesus finally did realize who he was as the son of a carpenter, but the Son of GOD,  he had to wait two decades  to call his first disciple, and three more years to complete the work.  GOD always answers the sincere heart, the one who really is seeking Him. That’s a guarantee. He proves Himself to the sincere hearted, to the broken and contrite, those are His favorite kind. One thing I will tell you is this, He is not an on-demand GOD. He works on his own time schedule, His own way.  He answers us when the timing is perfect, not when we demand it of Him.  

   However, for those with a chip on their shoulder, trying to prove He doesn't exist, you can count on Him not answering.  If one is hell-bent on demanding GOD think and act like a human does on a human's time table, well, you can count on him proving you are right in your own mind, until it's too late, when you find out after your last breath that you were wrong all that time. YHVH GOD will never leave or deny the truth seeker with a humble heart, he will ignore the one with the proud heart, or the one who has created Him in the image of humans. I'm still waiting for GOD to prove to me that I'm right about a few things, I've been waiting thirteen years, but until then, He'll continue Divine Coincidence after Divine Coincidence because He is empathetic to my struggle. He will be to yours also.  After all, He wrote your story before you were even born.  He wrote every mistake into your story, because some of us learn  by trial and error, mostly error.