Sometimes Insomnia is From That Dreaded Menopause, Other Times, It's Class Time with GOD.

     Going to bed every night is always a battle for me. It's the time of day I hate the most.  Falling asleep is not usually a problem, but staying asleep never happens.  In fact, the only time I can remember it happening in the last decade or so was on my way to CA with my son.  We drove for 15 hours on day one, and I took something to help me sleep.  I remember laying down, then minutes later, or so it seems, Joe was waking me up to get ready to hit the road, again.  I hadn't even moved my positioning on the bed from the time I laid my head down on the pillow.  Because I don't want to get "addicted" to a sleep aid, most nights are just a battle ground between me and GOD.  I've tried every trick in the book, but it's the time I have the best conversations with GOD.  

     Sometimes, during those insomniac times, GOD will  open my spiritual eyes to a truth inside His Word but outside the church box.  After He shows me something, it's during that time that I have the most faith that what I've learned is "earth shattering."  At that time, He gives me the faith to believe it is from Him directly, because He proves that it fits historically, and how it reflex His character and tradition from the Hebrew Scriptures and His Biblical heroes. 

   Eventually, I'll fall asleep and wake up the next morning, and without exception, GOLIATH shows   What did Goliath do? He challenged the army of the LORD. He used his great height, might, fortitude and military training to intimidate the soldiers.  There will always be a Goliath to your faith, one who will intimidate and attack it.  Another example a Sennacherib.  If Goliath doesn't defeat you, Sennacherib will try.  Sennacherib used his historical military triumphs to invoke fear and take Judah's eyes off what the LORD had been constantly teaching them.   What did the King of Judah do? He laid prostate before the LORD and showed the threats to the LORD at the Temple. Because King  Hezekiah took his fear to the proper place, GOD answered Sennacherib and let him know just Who granted him his past victories. He also prophesied about Sennacherib future and demise at the hand of his own sons.  

     

     GOD will isolate His chosen so they learn to hear only from Him, because the world is full of Goliath's and Sennacherib's.  GOD watched over David while he was the rejected brother. All of that isolation taught David to hear only the voice of YHVH instead of paying more attention to tradition and history.  Many Rabbinic teachings suggest that David wasn't a full bred of Jesse and his wife, and that was why he wasn't invited to the original dinner with the Seer Samuel. They teach he may have been the son of a harlot, concubine, or even adulterous affair of Jesse's wife. He was thought of as a second-hand son. He was number eight and as many of you know, eight is the Hebrew number that stands for new beginnings.

    GOD will choose a person whose beloveds and the world will reject.  He will watch over that rejected person and open his/her eyes to teachings that surpass tradition and aren't limited to the church box. Then GOD will give that person a Supernatural faith like He gave to David to believe that GOD will do it. While that man/woman of faith is waiting for GOD to do what He showed them, history, tradition, and naysayers will do everything they can to defeat that person.    Does this describe you? Too many people will settle for mediocre because it's comfortable, or they don't want to look like a freak  Like Terah, Abram's father, they are okay with "settling in Haran," halfway to the destination.  After that, GOD passes the torch on to another, who He knows will complete the journey.  The rest of the way is the most arduous part of the journey.  It's the road less traveled.  

     The Valley of Achor is what is between us and the promise land, and there's not a more depressing place than the Valley of Achor.  That's when GOD has to step in and give us a push.  There are very few fearful/doubting "Biblical" heroes out there who don't battle time, tradition, and naysayers. Those who hear from God will let the world chase them off the straight and narrow path and on to a  battlefield. They will put on Saul's Armor until they realize, Saul's armor doesn't fit them.  It is then they have to strip down and go with naked and blind faith.  It's not an easy life, but there isn't a Bible hero written about who took the easier path.  It's a lonely road, and not all can bear the isolation.  If you are on such an empty path, note this: It may seem empty now, but if you know GOD spoke to you during those quiet hours when all the world was asleep, He kept you awake because GOD whispers while the whole world screams during waking hours.  

 Three Races, 

Two Horses and 

One GOD! 

     Most of my readers know that  I can relate almost anything that happens in the natural to  spiritual events in heavenlies, and that is because I know that GOD is intricately involved in everything that happens on this earth because it's His creation. When a carpenter builds a house with his own hands, by the time he's finished with it, he knows almost every grain that runs in every plank of wood that built that house. He knows every intricate detail in the design, planning and construction.  GOD is much like that with His Creation and with time and events. 

  I am convinced that one of His most favorite creations besides humans, of course, is the horse.  If you have ever gotten close to one, you can see the Hand of GOD by it's stunning beauty. It wasn't until I came to the horse capital of the world that I truly discovered them, and not until I watched my very first Kentucky Derby that I truly realized the magnificence of this creature. The muscle structure of that animal when it runs just screams Divine Artistry as you see each muscle working in coordination with the bone structure. Although horse racing is as much big business as church business has become, I truly believe that GOD can speak and move through horse racing at electrifying speed if one know where to look.  

    As a loner put into isolation by YHVH GOD Himself these past thirteen years, I usually have no one to talk to, and as an over thinker that could be a problem.  I found the solution to that by learning to aim every thought toward my Creator Himself.  I talk to Him a lot, and I mean all day long.  Every thought I have is aimed at Him, so when a thought comes back, if it lines up with His Character and the Whole Counsel of GOD in historical and cultural context, I know from Whence that thought came.  GOD most assuredly speaks to those who want to hear from Him, but one must be sure that voice is coming from the correct Source, and not from other sources, like our own egos or even minions assigned to us from principalities of the dark cosmic powers. (Ephesians 6).  The Bible is clear that GOD is into the details. Take a glance at Ezra and the specific people, animals and items that returned with the exiles to rebuild the Temple.  I believe that the rebuilding of the Temple is what is happening now, but on a global and spiritual level, because GOD always repeats Himself.  

     If you haven't lived in a cave, you know that the two superstar horses this year are SOVEREIGNTY and Journalism.  If you know as much about horse racing as I do, you know that there is the Triple Crown in horse racing like there is one football Superbowl, and one NASCAR  500 Cup series race that bring out the best of the best.  The three races are The Kentucky Derby, The Preakness, and the Belmont Stakes.  Every once in a blue moon, one spectacular horse will win all three in the same year. The last time that happened was in 2018 with JUSTIFY.  He's my spirit animal, because that most astounding animal did something no other horse has ever done in the entire history of horse racing.  He came out of nowhere in the end of January, (my birthday weekend), raced for the first time in three qualifying races, and scored enough points to get into and dominate the Kentucky Derby. He then went on to easily take  the Preakness title, and finally, he received the coveted Triple Crown title in the Belmont Stakes.  I totally got into this series, because I knew my future depended on a horse race.  It was just one of the many times my answer and my relationship with GOD flourished from a fleecing!  (Judges 6).  For your enjoyment, Each leg of the the Triple Crown won by JUSTIFY)

   I fell crazy madly in love with that horse, not so much because of his breeding, but because of his name.  I was going through one of the most awful times of my life, and there have been many, but I clearly heard GOD promise me that He would justify all that I have been through for a greater good. I'm not into gambling away the provisions of Jehovah Jireh, but I have no problems betting my hopes and dreams on a horse race, and GOD has always come through for me. The previously unknown JUSTIFY accomplished what no horse has ever done, then faded into the background by retiring from racing. His present job now is to reproduce other thoroughbreds.  Are you seeing what I'm seeing?  I'm a nobody with the hopes of doing the same.  He's my spirit animal because I see in him what GOD sees in me.  We even have an imaginationship!   

      In 2023, I went to go see  JUSTIFY in person, on the 5th anniversary of his stunning victory, and when  I walked up to him, with my eyes watering, I whispered,  "You know who I am, don't you?"  He stared at me with those big beautiful brown eyes and we connected heart to heart. We stood there staring at each other, and we became one in spirit.  He recognized me as another thoroughbred, even though I was just one of many humans in that barn.  I stayed back and just communicated with him, knowing that our Creator put it in his heart that I was someone special too, and we had the same Creator and were created for the same purpose. After I walked out of that barn all alone, I heard him whinny and call to me, and that was confirmation enough for me. The five other horses, including American Pharoah and Maximum Security were also in that barn and quite silent the whole time we were in there.   

     Recently, I asked GOD about this year's races and why SOVEREIGNTY was not going to run in the Preakness.  I knew there had to be a good answer with a deeper spiritual meaning to this, because he would have easily won the Triple Crown this year.  GOD always answers our questions, but sometimes we have to wait for the answer.  My answer came about a month later, while preparing to go see my beloved horse, JUSTIFY.  I believe GOD let me know that He took SOVEREIGNTY out of the 2nd leg of the race to show me that Journalism does have a stake in the horse racing world and he is a powerful force, however, that coveted  Triple Crown title belongs to JUSTIFY still, and it will remain as such until GOD wills for another aptly named thoroughbred in His perfect time for His perfect reasons. 

    It was then that He expanded on that answer and the deeper meaning hit me, and you are going to love this.   I really got involved in this years series when I learned that a horse name SOVEREIGNTY was in the Derby. Immediately, I caught on to what GOD was doing, and I predicted and hoped for SOVEREIGNTY to storm the horse racing world.  SOVEREIGNTY is one of GOD's greatest character traits and the one I've battle with the most.  I told Him, (as if He didn't already know), that He could not let any other named horse beat out His SOVEREIGNTY, and that He had to prove that His Name ruled over all.  As usual, He did not disappoint.  Two of the best races I've ever seen were this years Kentucky Derby and The Belmont Stakes. (The Kentucky Derby 2025 and The Belmont Stakes 2025)  I knew SOVEREIGNTY was going to win them, I even posted it both times on my Social Media, but kept it private, because GOD's conversations with us are supposed to be just that, intimate and private.  

    Then it hit me like a Jockey's whip.  Journalism was the bonafide winner of the Preakness and came in second in the other two races in the Triple Crown leg this year.  Now, if you're not putting this together yet, let me do it for you. Journalism is man's word, and it represents man's free will.  Journalism is what man writes, whereas GOD's Word is SOVEREIGN over all.   So many people have told me that man has free will, and GOD stays out of man's free will.  I always disagree.  Man's free will and word are subject to GOD's will and Sovereignty. Two of my favorite Biblical characters and stories prove that. Both  Jeremiah and Jonah wanted to run from GOD (Jeremiah 20 and Jonah 1), but GOD's SOVEREIGN rule and calling on their lives prevailed.  GOD had ordained a work for them to do, and as much as both butted heads with Him, GOD's SOVEREIGNTY ruled over their free will.  Man's free will does make a mark in this world, many times a negative one, but GOD's SOVEREIGNTY will always win over it, because GOD will forever JUSTIFY those who follow close after Him. 

     I'm in the same race with GOD and man,  I've fought with Him over dozens of things that have happened in my life basically because of some men's free will and how it has negatively impacted my life.  I've tried to run from GOD, but each time, He has stopped me cold dead in my tracks.  He has a race for me to run and a prize for me to win, and He knows that eventually, even though I appear to be in last place, I am going to succeed and come out in first place and win this Spiritual Race.  There are way too many days when I feel like GRONKOWSKI, the horse in the 2018 Belmont Stakes. I feel ten lengths back in last place, but in the end, GOD will breathe on me and push me forward to come in just behind another of His great characteristics.  GOD will JUSTIFY all the pain and evil that has been done to me, and His SOVEREIGNTY will rule the race I've been running.  

      If you are anything like me and you are fighting GOD's call on your life, no matter how much you lay back, no matter how slow you run, if GOD has an ordained plan to do a great work through you,  His SOVEREIGNTY will get you where you need to be and when.  Those other horses in the race will be there with you, and you need them, because if there were no other horses, they'd be no need for you to run!  

  Some Hills Just Aren't Worth Dying On.

There are so many people out there who just don't get it. But, it's taken me almost six decades to get it myself. My mother cursed me by saying the usual mother's curse, "I hope you have a child just like you." Well, I had three. Like their mother, they insist on dying on every hill. They have to win an argument or debate. Sadly, I taught them that. I made a lot of mistakes as a mother of 8, and that was one of them. I didn't learn this lesson until recently, so I do not expect them to learn it any easier or earlier.

Being a writer, student of the Word, student of people, and all around social person behind the blue screen of a monitor, I observe a lot of people arguing online. I too used to be one of those who could get into a good knock down drag out fight on X or Facebook, or anywhere someone lit my fire with what I call their folly. It's so foolish to start and even try to continue a fight or debate on social media sites, just as foolish as it is to fight with one's significant other in a text conversation. It goes nowhere fast, and both end up worse off then when the conversation began.

There is a great divide, one like I've never witnessed. It's both political and religious, so if you think you can separate the two, you are living in a dream world, because they are intricately connected and always have been. The three groups politically are called, Patriots, Normies, and those suffering from TDS (Trump Delusional Syndrome). There is even a sub-divide among the Patriots, but that's for another post. Let's just lump all the "Trump Fans" in the Patriot's category. The Normies are the average TV-watching, fake-news believing sheep. They have drunk the Kool-aid, and there is no way to get that poison out of their system. They believe what they see on social media and TV, and they can't seem to turn it off. They may mean well and may be perfectly "normal," passivists, but they aren't helping the cause. Those with TDS, on the other hand, are lost because of serious demonic influence. I'm sure we've all experienced the crazed woman screaming her head off when Ruth Bader Ginsburg died, or shaving their heads and swearing off sex because Donald Trump won the election.

They are the cancel culture and they support crazed agendas that no one would have believed post WWII or even in the 60's-70's. The Bible is clear that He would send strong delusions to force them to believe the lies, and worse than that act out in strange demonic ways. They seem to have gone completely mad! (Pun intended) Because of their stony hearts, GOD has turned them over to their natural selves, and there is no way to rescue them. (Romans 1) They are programmed to hate Trump and anyone who is a Trump supporter.

When it comes to religion, it is the same with hardline fundamentalist New Testament Christian church people who treat the New Testament as if it replaced the Old Testament, or as we like to call them, the Hebrew Scriptures. They may claim they aren't replacement theologist, but they indeed are. I used to be one of them, so I can speak from experience. They read and follow Paul as if he replaced Jesus. They take Paul's words so out of context that they completely contradict what Yeshua clearly taught in the Gospels. These man-made doctrines are so ingrained in them from generations of seminary-taught pastors who drilled it into them that getting them to even consider that they have been taught wrong is like knocking down a hornet's nest in the middle of the day. We all know that you don't do that. They have all been so brainwashed and conditioned to think their way is right that YHVH GOD has chosen NOT to reveal the truth to them because they love their man-made traditions and doctrines too much. It's what is familiar and comfortable for them. Don't get me wrong, I am not questioning their salvation in any way shape or form.

Many of these church people hate Trump. They also have Trump Delusional Syndrome, because Trump isn't a Biblical scholar, or a Biblical hero like King David or Joseph. Are you catching on to the religion and politics mix yet? Do you understand that both David and Joseph were political leaders called of GOD and not priests? They were prophets, yes, also as deep into politics as anyone can be; and both anointed and appointed by GOD to be such. These anti-political church people usually have zero knowledge of Biblical history and the politics throughout the Hebrew Scriptures. Truth be told, David was clueless when it came to the Torah, and 2 Samuel 6 proves that when he put the Ark of the Covenant on a new cart and one of his cherished men suffered the consequences of that "Biblical ignorance. He knew nothing of the TORAH, which means instruction, because by the time he came to power, the Torah had been just as corrupted and mostly lost and misunderstood as contemporary Christianity has become today, with its thousands of Protestant denominations and the Vatican. I'll stop there. Times were no different then than they are now. (Ecclesiastes 1:9)

Many church people think we are living in the worst of times, the last days, the end of days because they have no true historical knowledge of all the evil that existed before they were born. The Bible is replete with the most horrific evil, but it is white-washed or ignored, because it doesn't sound uplifting. I finally stopped arguing with these people, because YHVH GOD said it was folly. GOD has chosen to blind them, and who among us thinks they can go beyond what GOD has already decided and change His order? The only thing I can do is post and write about the truth GOD shows me and trust Him to get it to the hearts that are open to Him. We have no more power to change or convict a non-believer of their need for a Savior than we do to change or convince these people of the truth. The only power that can do that is the Holy Spirit. GOD calls us to a work or a job, but it is through the heat of the fiery furnace of affliction, He teaches us to trust Him to light the way for those searching in their own darkness.

Most Atheist Are Agnostics and for Good Reason. 

   Whether you are an atheist or agnostic, or you’ve been a prodigal for so long that you question even the very existence of GOD, this is as good as any time to consider the obvious. It is the human condition to question everything and try to distinguish the real from the imagined. GOD made us in His own image, which means he wants us to think things through. Maybe you are looking for something to get you through this sea of despair that is trying to drown you. I want to assure you that I have been in all of those places, so I speak of what I know experientially, if that is even a word. I remember doubting GOD’s existence, actually not believing at all. I remember thinking that Born-again believers were holy-rollers, nuts, weirdos, and not wanting anything to do with them. I also broke up with GOD after twenty-one years of walking with Him as a devout student of the Word. There are many reasons why we break up with GOD. I also can relate to treading water so long in the sea of despair that you just want to stop paddling and use your last breath to suck into your lungs a gulp of that salt-water of death. Drowning can be the easiest or the worst way to go, depending on one’s frame of mind.

     I have lived through and survived the fiery furnace of affliction for so many decades, that commonsense says, this has to be of GOD, and He must have a perfectly good reason for it. I have found that if it doesn’t make human sense, it usually makes GOD sense. I’ve been hurt in every way possible, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I have yelled at GOD, researched GOD, sought GOD, and doubted Him. Each time, though, I’ve asked Him to show Himself real to me, and the faithful GOD that He is, it wasn’t long down the road that He would knock my socks off with something so coincidental to my particular problem that it would be mathematically impossible to explain away. I’ve seen thousands of acts of GOD that are simply inexplicable. Sometimes it’s an event, sometimes it’s a Scripture, sometimes it’s a person, and sometimes it’s aptly placed on my social media feed. Regardless, when I seriously contemplate it, I can hear the Holy Spirit say, "Wrap your brain around it for a few minutes, you'll see that it was Your Father keeping you going when you continue to want to give up."

     Coincidences aren’t chance, because there is no such thing as chance. If there was, then they’d be no such thing as an All-powerful and Sovereign GOD. I tell people the best way to judge one's sanity is this: A sane person with David-like faith questions whether or not he's delusional, and a delusional person is convinced he's sane. So, if you are feeling guilty and beating yourself up for doubting GOD, or skeptical and want to find some way to denounce everything in this world, don’t worry about it. GOD understands. He knows our thoughts before we think them, and He has the answer planned ahead of time. If there is anyone who understands what it’s like to be human, it’s GOD, because he was. He came down here and suffered hell on earth in the physical limitations of the human body. The Bible says, He remembers that we are but dust. (Psalm 103, now go look for it.)

     He understands time as we experience it, even though He lives beyond time because when He came to earth as a man.  When Jesus finally did realize who he was as the son of a carpenter, but the Son of GOD,  he had to wait two decades  to call his first disciple, and three more years to complete the work.  GOD always answers the sincere heart, the one who really is seeking Him. That’s a guarantee. He proves Himself to the sincere hearted, to the broken and contrite, those are His favorite kind. One thing I will tell you is this, He is not an on-demand GOD. He works on his own time schedule, His own way.  He answers us when the timing is perfect, not when we demand it of Him.  

   However, for those with a chip on their shoulder, trying to prove He doesn't exist, you can count on Him not answering.  If one is hell-bent on demanding GOD think and act like a human does on a human's time table, well, you can count on him proving you are right in your own mind, until it's too late, when you find out after your last breath that you were wrong all that time. YHVH GOD will never leave or deny the truth seeker with a humble heart, he will ignore the one with the proud heart, or the one who has created Him in the image of humans. I'm still waiting for GOD to prove to me that I'm right about a few things, I've been waiting thirteen years, but until then, He'll continue Divine Coincidence after Divine Coincidence because He is empathetic to my struggle. He will be to yours also.  After all, He wrote your story before you were even born.  He wrote every mistake into your story, because some of us learn  by trial and error, mostly error. 

AUTHENTIC  VS  COUNTERFEIT    

     I am a writer who hates writing. That's like saying I'm a track star who hates running.  I find writing to be quite a  chore, like cleaning the shower, but it needs to be done. I tell people cleaning the shower clears out the soap scum, and writing clears out my brain. So many thoughts run amuck up there. I used to take ADHD meds, then I went KETO and realized Ketones are so much healthier for my brain, but not quite as effective. Lately, I've been writing a lot about the counterfeit teachings of the Christian Church. It's not like I'm mad at them, but more like I'm mad at the Adversary, who is an expert counterfeiter. 

      What is a counterfeit? It's something that wants to be like the real thing and thinks it's the real thing and doesn't have a clue that it's not the real thing, well, most counterfeiters are like that. I guess you could say my first marriage was a counterfeit marriage. I thought we were spiritual mates, I was sure of it. We weren't. I thought we were soulmates, I was sure of it, I was wrong. It lasted thirty years so it passed the test of time, but I was wrong the whole time. I had no idea who my husband was because he hid his true self from me and himself for so long.  I still don't know who he is or whether he is authentically saved. I'm relieved about there being no hell, though, because that haunted me for ten years. I was so worried that he lost his salvation, at least I know if he has, he won't be suffering conscious eternal torment and torture for all eternity, because that truth was counterfeit too. All these counterfeit truths, or LIES that I believed do make me angry, though. This post took more than a year to write, because I had to be as diplomatic about it as a northerner could be. The BIGGEST and Most EGREGIOUS LIE of Christianity

      The enemy of GOD, sometimes referred to as the devil will do his best to convince people that they are the real deal. He will give them counterfeit happiness, counterfeit riches, a mega-ministry with millions of followers. The thing about the counterfeit is that it always comes first. Take for example King Saul. He was the people's preference. He was tall, handsome, powerful, and GOD even gave him some successes in the beginning, however, his counterfeit loyalty to GOD came through loud and clear within a couple of years of his reign. The devil always starts with a counterfeit movement before GOD's true new thing. GOD allows it, thus weeding out those really not interested in pursuing the truth. Think about the times Jesus healed and fed people. Tens of thousands benefited from his miracles, but only 120 in the end were interested in his truth. 

    Sometimes, I will get into a funk and stop believing in myself and my  calling. When I do I go and listen to a few favorite self-proclaimed prophets/authors/teachers. I have two particular favorites I go to.  They are nobodies in the vast configuration of things, but they do have a large following.  They are on YouTube and Rumble, and I always find myself going back to them. I feel sorry for them, because they are absolutely convinced they are the real deal. They have 100K followers or so. They have written books and are ranked on Amazon pretty high up, but they are as clueless to their counterfeit teachings as are their fans. 

    There isn't a darn thing I can do about it, and it frustrates me, because they have more people praising them and following them who are also completely closed off to hearing the truth. How do I know they are fake? Because they've both predicted things that never happened. One in particular teaches that the 1,000-year of reign of Jesus would come when Donald Trump got re-elected and back into power. She predicted that for eight years. Yeah, she didn't predict he would "step away" from the White House for four years and work behind the scenes. She didn't see that coming. The other made many more predictions and claims "The Spirit of the LORD says," all the time and has published his prophecies as if they are Divinely Inspired Scriptures, with the same authority as the Bible.

     These are not bad people. They aren't building empires for themselves, they have the best of intentions. They want the Kingdom of GOD to expand. They have good hearts. The problem is, they've been blinded for so long to their own erroneous teaching that there is no convincing them that they are way off base. They use the traditional church method of interpreting prophecy. One thing I've learned is that GOD never lets man predict His next move, and they can't see that, they just go with what they've learned all of their lives in the accepted church teachings. 

      Jesus said that counterfeit signs and wonders would be in the last days. The Bible is replete with counterfeit magic arts, all the way back to Exodus and even in Acts 16. Paul was confronted by an authentic fortune teller who was a slave girl, who correctly predicted the future for her owners. Paul, rebuked the evil spirit to come out of her, thereby, he attributed her power to Satan, not to GOD. The Bible tells us that Satan and his minions come masquerading as angels of light.  That's the thing about false prophets, they don't know they are false prophets. So, if they are convinced they are the real thing, then they are experts at convincing their followers of what they believe to be the truth. Deuteronomy 18 is quite specific on how to judge a true prophet from a fake one. 

     I'm not a prophet, I don't predict what GOD is going to do, however, I have theories that I keep to myself. When it does happen, I keep that to myself, also. It's only for me. It is YHVH GOD affirming me that I should continue to do that what I'm doing and just rely on Him to get it where it needs to go.  You'll never find me on YouTube or Rumble, I'll always be an author in hiding.  I'd rather GOD get the credit and I remain in the shadows, unseen.  That way I'm not disobeying GOD, but I'm not out there trying to build a name for myself either. 

     The only way to know the difference is to be like the Bereans in Acts, who fact checked Paul on everything. That's why I insist on my readers fact checking me. Don't just take my word for it. Seek out the truth for yourself and let GOD use the Holy Spirit as your guide, the way John said he would in the 1st book of John, another major hint, go find it for yourself. Don't just take your pastor's word for it, because, friends, he may be wrong but not know he's wrong.  Don't take my word for it, search out the truth for yourself. 

    We are supposed to drink eight glasses of water a day, well, might I suggest that we study eight chapters of the Bible a day? Which Bible? Well, of course I'm going to recommend the one I use.  (The Complete Jewish Study Bible)  Yes, I realize that will take more than one's fifteen-minute devotional that we purpose to squeeze into our busy lives, at least five or six out of the seven days a week GOD has afforded to us. Going to church will not make you an expert in Scriptures, so spare me the Hebrews 10:25-fall-back verse that people use to rebuke me for rebelling against the establishment. Hebrews 10:25 is not literally defined as once a week, for 90 minutes, sitting quietly while spectating a carefully orchestrated worship service, which really is just a mind-conditioning session, or a brainwashing. I’m speaking in general terms here, so I’m not speaking of all congregations, but the majority of Hebrews 10:25’ers.

    I’ve been to many churches in my 35 years walking with GOD, and I never felt comfortable or felt like I belonged there. I just never fit in. So, I asked GOD, "Why do I keep leaving one and going to another, and repeating this same pattern?” I loved His answer,

“Have you ever thought that maybe I was the One making you feel uncomfortable there, because I didn’t’ want you in a church building, but rather I wanted you learning from Me directly, like Paul did, alone in the wilderness?"

    Now, of course, I'm paraphrasing GOD's voice, because GOD's voice sounds much like our own, because the Holy Spirit doesn't have vocal chords. Make sure that voice comes straight from Scripture, and matches with the character of YHVH GOD Himself, and does not appeal to the human ego. If GOD tells you something, most likely it will be uncomfortable and really stretch you to step out where the water is cold and the fish are more like piranhas. You can expect to be bitten or rather eaten up by other church people who do not like what you have to say. If the masses don't like it, it's probably from GOD.  GOD also always repeats Himself, so if you can find it in the Old Testament, you can call it for the latter days, but in the Spiritual and on a global scale. 

    King David was given the blueprints of the Temple that his son was to build.  King David wasn't allowed to live to see it built, because when man does something, man tends to take credit for it as did King Solomon who built the first beautiful Temple. Solomon got the glory for the building, but David had the original blueprints. David didn't get the glory for building it, instead, he got labeled, "a man after GOD's own heart." Now, that's a better glory than building anything. I sure do hope that when the Remnant is strong, bearing fruit, that someday, after I'm gone, they will say of me, "she was a woman after GOD's own heart."

 The Arrogance of Man and

the Ignorance of  the Sheeple

(Another revised post)

I've learned over the last twelve years of intense Bible study more than I had learned in the twenty-five years of previous study, cumulatively.   Before these past several years,  I was the typical, spoon-fed New Testament Christian.  I was a carport.  I broached that topic in a previous blog. (GOD Doesn't Fix What's Wrong, He Starts All Over Again)    Then, the bottom fell out in my life and I was dying from the inside out.  The only way to survive was to go back to the beginning and start studying GOD’s Word all over again, but much differently than the previous years of studying under a pastor or church leader.  This time I was in search of the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. 

  GOD brought me to the Old Testament cover to cover, which I call the Hebrew Scriptures, because the New Testament church thinks it's obsolete. He showed me just how wrong I had been taught for two-plus decades in the church, and how to properly read prophecy according to His prophetic terms and not according to man's accepted church timeline.   I have learned so much about  history and prophecy because He put me in there in every Bible character’s role. He helped me find His heroes who could help me get through this devastating time, by studying what they did.  I learned about people in the Bible that I had never heard of in my previous years of consistent studying.  There are quite a few that really fascinate me, but none more than Zerubbabel.  Every time I would ask a pastor about Zerubbabel’s prophecy, they didn't know what I was talking about.  I think GOD has purposely hidden that from today’s clergy and Bible teachers.  I can’t begin to explain why, but I have Scripture to support that.  Someday, I'll write on Zerubbabel's prophecy, but the point is, no one knows it who has spent their life sitting listening to their educated pastors. 

I  believe that much of Hebrew prophecies to the kingdoms of the Northern Tribe of Israel, and the southern tribe of Judah, are symbolic and foretelling of the church.  If you really study that time period of about 400 years, you will see the church age in living color.  It’s truly quite fascinating how the books of the kings seems to foreshadow some spiritual giants of the latter days.  What I learned is that if it happened in the natural in the Hebrew Scriptures, then it happens in the latter days, but on a spiritual level and on a global scale.  It’s called typology.  So, I believe that today’s clergy and yesterday’s Bible scholars and Bible commentators have missed something big, and not because they were in the wrong, but because they did not live long enough to observe GOD’s workings with His people, and I believe that GOD purposed to  hold back revealing it.  The majority of the Christian church do not even know the true history of GOD’s people from a chronological standpoint.  I know this because I was an avid student of the Word, but it wasn’t until I was 20+ years old in the LORD, before I really started studying it. Most people have no idea who Zerubbabel is.  The statistics are that 90% of Christians know only 10% of the Bible, and I believe it.  Most Christians cannot put the major and minor prophets in chronological historical order, and to whom they were speaking and what was the historical context that that prophet’s message. Isaiah 29 predicted this day.  Imagine, this is the latter days, and GOD is speaking to the apostate church. 

¹⁰ For the Lord has poured over you a spirit of deep sleep, He has shut your eyes, the prophets; and He has covered your heads, the seers. ¹¹ The entire vision will be to you like the words of a sealed  book, which when they give it to the one who  is literate, saying, “Please read this,” he will say, “I cannot, for it is sealed.” ¹² Then the  book will be given to the one who  is illiterate, saying, “Please read this.” And he will say, “I ^[ cannot read.”¹³ Then the Lord said,

“Because this people draw near with their  words and honor Me with their  ^]lip service, but they remove their hearts far from Me, and their reverence for Me consists of  tradition learned by rote,¹⁴ Therefore behold, I will once again deal marvelously with this people, wondrously marvelous; and the wisdom of their wise men will perish, And the discernment of their discerning men will be concealed.”

 Traditions of men, didn't Jesus say this?  I’m not talking Roman Catholicism, here, I’m talking, getting up every Sunday morning, sitting quietly, spectating a finely choreographed worship service by an incorporated entity call “a church.”   The vastness of Biblical illiteracy is the nutrient deficiency along with other cancers which have literally killed the body of Christ.  It's scary and dangerous just how many people will blindly follow a leader who is widely known  by the masses but a fraud known by GOD.  I think we are starting to see the fall out with all the sexual clergy abuse being exposed in the protestant church by these rock-star pastors who have built empires for themselves.  Seems the Protestant church was too quick to accuse Roman Catholic priests, when they themselves were doing the same thing.

Now, some of you may be thinking that I’m a trouble maker, upsetting the status quo. Once, a local pastor actually said to me, “I’ve heard all about you in our ministerial association meetings, and I was advised to keep an eye on you, because you were a trouble maker.”  He said that to me while both my husband and I were battling cancer.  That pastor is a complete fraud and was working only to build a name for himself.  I saw right through him, eventually, my husband did too, and we left.  At first I was very hurt, after that, I just got MAD!  I tell the truth, a truth most Christian do not like to hear.  I rock the boat. I’m not one of the sheeple. (a new term coined by the Trump Patriots during the COVID debacle. Turns out we were right about it, also.)   I’m not going to sit politely and pretend that the man up in that pulpit has all the answers and I’m to believe every word he says, just because he went to seminary.  None of Jesus's disciples were educated men.  Paul the Apostle was educated and he considered his education rubbish in comparison to really know the true Messiah. 

When one of my daughter's graduated, she got a senior class superlative. MOST OPINIONATED!  I was so proud of her for that. It’s not what most parents would be proud of, but me, I am thrilled because she’s a chip off the old block.  I take that as a compliment in my parenting.  She’s a strong woman who stands her ground. She doesn’t back down and follow the crowd, she thinks for herself. So, here is where I am going to get very controversial.  Based on the above Scriptures, plus multiple others, and the historicity of GOD’s dealing with His people, I see the Glory of YHVH GOD leaving the Church, as He did when He left the Tabernacle in Shiloh, the Temple in 586 BC and the Temple again in AD 70.  The letters to the churches in Revelation predicted He would.  We know now that they were prophetic, but I highly doubt that John knew that these letters would describe two thousand years of a church age.  Most of them had no idea that the church age would last 2,000+ years. Even Paul the Apostle believed Jesus would come back in his lifetime.  The mere fact that there were only two churches Jesus did not find fault with simply proves my Remnant theory.  GOD’s hand of blessing is moving away from the church and will be blessing and working through the Remnant.  The Remnant will gather a harvest of disciples, not converts, but be true to the Great Commission to “Go and make disciples teaching them to observe  all that Jesus commanded.”  Let’s observe the original Greek:

Note the different wording than what we learned. The Gospel is meant to have feet and arms and be on the move.  It's not supposed to be locked behind closed doors for 90 minutes a week.  Evangelism was never GOD's intention, but creating students of the Truth, those who want to find it for themselves.  He tells us in Jeremiah 29:13  to seek Him with all our hearts and minds, and we will find Him.  The church is only interested in the previous verses about what GOD will do for them.  They want to be comfortable and financially blessed.  None of GOD's heroes in the Scriptures were comfortable, most were persecuted for rocking the boat.   So many translations have corrupted the original intent. Now, I’m NOT against different translations, I’m all for them, but when it comes to finding out the original intent, a serious Bible student will always go back to the original language and cultural context for more details and a better interpretation.  Based on the history of GOD’s people, I see a definite pattern repeating itself. Ecclesiastes is clear on the fact that there is nothing new under the sun that GOD has not already done. The problem is man, not GOD. 

A perfect example is that the church is so obsessed with the accepted church age timeline that she has her head up her butt, just waiting for the Rapture, and  almost seemingly excited about the Tribulation period for all those sinners out there to taste the wrath of GOD.  Pardon my expression, but there is no other way to describe it. They are not watching for the Remnant, let alone interested in being it.   The church is full of arrogant bullies in the pulpits these days, especially those mega churches with budgets in the tens of millions.  With some preachers, if it’s not in a commentary by the scholars, then, it’s not accurate.  How dumb is that?  What were the commentators of old but mere mortals who didn’t live long enough to see GOD's Hand through the ages?  Only by actually living through history will knowledge increase, and wisdom for the wise.  We have a hundred or more years of history of living through than the commentators. We have seen more, the more we see, the more we see a pattern.

Raise your hand if you think for one minute that GOD will let arrogant, mortal man, full of sin and pride to predict His next move?  Haven’t we tried that before and failed?  Did the Northern Kingdom Israel see the Assyrians coming in to conquer them?  Did Judah see Babylon coming for them, even though they were told?  Habakkuk, Isaiah, Jeremiah, the prophets did, but did they believe them?  So, lets do some basic math.  If there were say 450 false prophet for every one true prophet in one small nation, how many false prophets could there be world wide now?  (1 Kings 17-19, 1 Kings 22)  If there were a couple of million people, at best, back then in Israel, , and that’s an exaggeration,  let’s assume there is about 4 billion Christians in the world today, can you do the math? Now, with social media, any Whacko Wendy can get up and broadcast her predictions or absurd rapture dream. How many do you believe might be authentically anointed and appointed of GOD? Do you suppose many of them want a camera in their face?  I dare say no.  Again, another post: To Be or Not to Be A Prophet,  I'm not one to point fingers and start naming names, I'm just more interested in getting people to seek out the truth for themselves.  GOD did not put us here to point fingers, but most people don't want to do the research themselves to find the truth.  

Being spoon-fed or bottle-fed 90 minutes a week is good enough for them.  It's my job to point out mistakes in the common accepted teachings, it's not a pleasant job, but either is cleaning bathrooms, but someone has to do it.  I'm not thick-skinned, and the older I get the thinner my skin gets, however, a lie is a lie and time doesn't change that.  I've graduated seven out of my eight children into adulthood, not one did I push to be a Rhoads Scholar, but they pushed themselves.  Six of them were all self-supporting by age 20. That could be a good thing or a bad thing, but the one thing I've always done is teach them to think independently and to seek the truth.  Some have, but all have walked away from the church.  I do hope some return to GOD, but I hope none return to the status quo of the church, because they won't find the truth there.  It's an ugly truth, but so isn't aging!  We don't get more beautiful on the outside.  This is something I'm having to face every time I walk by a mirror.  No pun intended, well, maybe intended a little! 

TOSS the CROSS

        My next act attempt at shocking you would be addressing this problem of wooden crosses scattered all over the planet.  I’m not doing this for fun,  but once I learn something in Scripture from GOD, it is imperative that I share it, lest I be held accountable for someone continuing in a tradition  that could very well be an abomination to the Almighty.  Some people who read this won’t care, because you’ll say that I’m being ridiculous, and that’s fine.   For those others who are sensitive to GOD’s Holy Spirit and leading, not wanting to commit any kind of offense to The Most High,  you may not sit in that pew looking up at that cross again without wondering if it offends GOD.  

I’m calling it a carved image, because that is what it is. It is wood carved out of a tree, which grows from the earth.  That one hanging up in front, over the baptismal, or the one on the top of the steeple, or the one with Jesus still on it, (the Crucifix), or the one hanging around your neck right now, could it be the exact kind of carved image GOD meant in that second commandment to not create any carved image.   As usual, when I heard this from a Messianic Rabbi that I’ve been listening to, as of late, of course, I want straight to the Scripture.  I got right to  the Hebrew,  and I investigated his claim, and by golly, I got the SHOCK of my life. I’m still not recovered from this.  Let's take a closer look at Exodus 20:4.

     As you can see in this verse, (of anything) is parenthesis, because the Hebrew word for image in this verse could lean more toward man or animal, as in gold calf?  However, by inserting the word    כֹּל  (kol) in there, that now covers the WHOLE gamut of images or likeness of ANY thing on earth below or heaven above.  For you protestants who thought that the Catholic statutes were an abomination, you might want to rethink that about your giant empty cross that you bow down to when you make your way up to the altar on Sunday morning, for an altar call and meeting time with Jesus.  Crucifying someone on the cross was considered the most shameful way of executing the most vile of criminals.  Jesus, our Savior, subjected himself to dying the same manner of murderers, thieves, and societies most iniquitous degenerates who would be sentenced to die a horrific death. 

Would you hang a giant wooden noose up over your baptismal in your mostly black congregations?  I dare say, no you would not.  Well, could GOD sees the cross as if it is a noose to us.  Open your Bibles and count how many times GOD condemns His people for crafting idols of the surrounding pagans and incorporating them into the Temple.  Now for those of you who actually know something about the Bible, you'll say that GOD instructed Moses to carve an image similar to an almond branch for the lampstand, and cherubim with extended wings over the Mercy seat.  Those are carved images, right?  Yes, they are.  However, GOD told them to build them for the Tabernacle.  GOD never told anyone that I know of to carve the image of the "noose" Yeshua gave up his life on and put it up in churches all over the world, calling these church buildings GOD's house, or the house of the LORD, which they are most definitely not.  GOD destroyed the one place on earth that He dwelt with His people.  After that, His Holy Spirit dwells within us, so essentially, we are the "house of the LORD," and very mobile, not buildings of mortar and stone. 

     GOD wanted His people to stand out and be different from the surrounding pagan nations. He did not want His people to resemble in any way the detestable ways of pagan polytheism of the pagan nations around them.  I spoke to my daughter about this, and she said, and I quote, “I always thought of it as a guillotine type symbol, anyway.”)  No more accurate way to describe it.   The carved image of the cross has for so long been a part of Christianity over a thousand years, and we have been conditions to (love) “worship” the carved image.    It’s going to require a whole new way of thinking to see that wooden cross, or that metal cross on your neck, or earrings the way GOD sees it.  Remember, GOD doesn’t think anything like man, and man can’t think anything like GOD. (Isaiah 55:8-9) Therefore, what GOD hates, man usually loves. What man loves, GOD usually hates.  One must learn to think on a completely different level when it comes to what GOD may want or like in us.  Most likely, what GOD wants or likes in us makes no sense to us, because we are but mere mortal humans incapable of thinking in GOD's higher ways.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying we should hate the cross, we are grateful for what Jesus did on it, but should we have that graven image around our necks? Are we are no different than the Israelites who bowed down to pagan idols, incorporated pagan rituals and even temple prostitutes into the Temple services.   I did some research to see just when the cross became a symbol of Christianity, and wouldn’t you know it, it is the fault of that tyrant emperor Constantine. He didn’t just make Christianity legal, and stop the persecutions, he made it the official religion, thus f0rcing it upon all of his subjects, whether there was a regeneration of the soul or not.  He incorporated their pagan practices, symbols, idols, and rituals into his new church in order to ease the transition for the polytheists of Rome.

Contrary to popular belief Jesus did not invent Christianity, Constantine did.  The Greek word for church in the Gospels is not  what we do (are) today.  The Greek word, (: ἐκκλησία, ας, ἡ) ekklésia  is what Jesus said he was his bride.  That Greek word means called out ones, whereas, Constantine converted forced conversions and began the practice of building  oikodomé  which means a building used for spiritual enhancement. GOD destroyed the central worship center when He put the Gospel in legs and arms as the new mobile Temple, meant to spread, not gather.  For further references you can read those blogs.

 This is going to take me some time to adjust our thinking to because we’ve so accepted the carved wooden image as a symbol of the love Jesus had for us for 1600 years.  Nothing changes that that love or act of self-sacrifice, it is too much for us to grasp.   I hated to be the bearer of bad news, but that giant wooden cross hanging up, in your oikodomé  buildings could just be an abomination to GOD.  Are we willing to take that chance?  Here something else to think about. How many people are wearing crosses on their bodies but not walking as Jesus walked?  Doesn't that cheapen the symbol just a little to you?